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someday i'll be able to pick up my journal and a pen without tears spilling all over the page.

"This heartbreak was not poetic. It was not beautiful. It was painful, very fucking painful. It was hugging you for the last time holding the tears back in my eyes. It was walking away slowly at the hope you would call me back. It was running to my sister and crying in her arms. It was walking back to class crying. It was roaming around the hallways, skipping class, and crying. It was sitting in the counselors room, telling her everything through painful sobs. It was coming home and laying on the couch to cry some more. Heartbreak was not eating. Heartbreak was not talking. Heartbreak was no tv. Heartbreak was no music. Heartbreak was sitting on the bed staring at the wall doing nothing. It was forcing myself to get up every morning. It was desperately keeping myself from texting you or walking up to you at school. Heartbreak was reading through our texts and looking through our pictures and crying some more. Heartbreak was dreaming of you then waking up to realize it was just a dream. It was holding onto false hope that you’d realize what you missed out on and want me back. Heartbreak was nothing but days and weeks and months of missing you."  - you ripped my heart to pieces and I’m still trying to piece it back together

"I love it when you hold my hand I love it when you pull me close and wrap your arms around me I love it when you kiss me I love it when I back away and you pull me in again I love it when you tell me I look really cute I love it when you send me smiley faces I love it when you look me right in the eyes I love it when you’re speechless after I sing a song I love it when I’m performing and I look up and you’re smiling I love it when you care about how I’m feeling I love it when you ask me how I’m doing even though I tell you I hate that question I love it when you joke with me I love it when you sing Wicked songs I love it when my phone lights up and it’s a text from you I love it when you text me back right away I love it when you apologize after taking a while to reply to me I love it when I walk over to you and you look up and smile I love it when you tell me good morning I love it when you caress my hand with your thumb I… really really love you"  - but now it’s past tense

fierysuggestion:

don’t look, don’t hurt your heart like that

"

Our friendship ended without any confrontation, it ended just like that. No words spoken. Nothing left but me and my stupid broken heart.

Then you came back.

We tried to work it out, but couldn’t. We realized nothing would ever be the same. So there I am again, broken and left alone lying on the ground.

And then you come around a second time.

You’d think this time it’d work. But everything was different. You were different. I was different. We’ve changed, we’ve evolved into two girls who went through god damn hard times but we made it through, sadly, without each other.

I tried. I really did try. I wanted it to work out. But I knew it wouldn’t. I knew that no matter what nothing would be the same, we’d never go back to normal. And I couldn’t take that pain.

I couldn’t lie to you and tell you I was okay when I really wasn’t.

I did it for me. I did it to protect myself. I did it so I wouldn’t be lying on the ground, soaking in my own tears, again, and again, and again.

I’m sorry.

"  - to someone i once called my best friend

"There’s a hole in the world like a great black pit, and it’s filled with people who are filled with shit."  - Stephen FUCKING Sondheim (via jacobreprise)

Heyyyyyyyyy
Fuck you 😘

timesnewromantics:

Dear Taylor,

PLEASE PASS ON MY HEARTIEST CONGRATULATIONS TO AUSTIN FOR GRADUATING FROM NOTRE DAME!!!

From one (almost) graduate to another,
Rebecca

P.S. I get my diploma on Friday, 22 May :)

MENTAL ILLNESS APPS. ONE REBLOG COULD HELP OR EVEN SAVE SOMEONE. 

recoverywarriorx:

These are all iPhone apps. I have no idea which are available on other phones.

Give some comfort and get some comfort..

• comfort spot 

Meditation is so healthy for you. No matter who you are. I can’t sleep unless there’s a guided meditation playing.

• GPS4Soul
• Headspace
• Calm
• Relax & Rest
• Take a Break
• Anxiety Free
• Breathe2Relax
• Relax Lite
• Smiling Mind
• The Quiet Place

Noise machines for those nights that you can’t hear anything but your mind..

• Sleep Pillow
• Relax Melodies

Journaling apps for on the go feelings that won’t leave you alone

• Mood Journal
• GratitudeDiary
• TherapyBuddy
• Everyday

PTSD patients

• Reach Out
• PTSD Coach

Mood Trackers that actually work and don’t suck like most

• Optimism
• Rise Up

For when you’re so anxious you can’t make eye contact with anyone. (trust me I get it.)

• MindShift
• Thisissand

When suicidal thoughts are strong, but you can’t seem to tell anyone for find any help.

• ReliefLink
• Hello Cruel World
• Ask

Positive affirmations/reminders you’re amazing

• Daily Recovery
• Inspirations
• Today’s Step
• Affirmations
• Flatter Me!

I hope this helps at least one person.. I know it sure as hell helps me. I’m sorry you’re struggling. I love you.